im so pathetic

Just look at the date when was the last time I blogged. I bet nobody would bother themselves reading my blog right. Sokay. It doesnt bother me much either.


There so many going on with my life lately. I dont have much privacy to keep on blogging. Im at the library now  and feel annoyed of how a sound of a girl munching a rice crackers who she sit near my seat. Im at the library since 9.30 am until now. But just then i started to do notes on physical & material strength which is entirely about psychics, i found myself so sleepy but i forced myself to write this because this is the only time i got. Btw, this laptop is not mine & the owner had some errand to do somewhere else.


But insyaallah i'll make an effort to blog and tell the stories of mine sooner. Take care!

Mumbling to myself

               Despite of my mobile phone is back to normal since yesterday & I had decided the date for my return plane ticket to shah alam for that camping thing, I can’t help myself from worrying about certain things. Yeah, it’s 3.22 o’clock in the morning of Saturday.

         I watched again Juno last night. I was impressed about how much Juno takes problems upon her so calmly with highly spirit. I should too perhaps. Maybe I’m worry about my exam results due next week. I hope I done good. My friend, Afiq already had dismissal this semester. Without telling I already know the reason. He failed the subject 3 times.

          Must be pretty hard my life goes without him during my next semester. Maybe because I like to enslave him to do things although I can do on my own. I’m kinda mean right? But don’t judge, he is meaner than me.

       And I’m worried about my life & what I’m going to do with it. People around me had lived their life with job already. But I’m still struggling myself with studies. My mom even stressed me out by telling me how much she can’t wait to see me graduate & how much she regretted with her decision letting me continuing my degree if this is the time that I have to take. Understand what I mean? If she really felt that way, she shouldn’t let me at the first place. So why quit now? When I’m half-way already.

     Lastly, I hope Ameer can buy me the ticket A.S.A.P. because I don’t want to score a highly-priced ticket like last time. So not worth it like last time, I bought a plane ticket by FireFly and I even paid for the luggage for RM45 not including my ticket was RM190+ plus I don’t have any meal on that plane plus the plane was so bumpy in the sky I even think that I might die young.

SO NOT WORTH IT.

Raja Lawak Fakulti Sains Gunaan (FSG)

 

Tell you what...

its a TRUE story

happened recently *mode malas*

Recognize this comics? My favorite ever. My drawing influenced by this comics anyway. LOL.

 Familliar with orange?? Hahaha.. Im the new orange!

*Perasan*

fasa seterusnya: Lebam

Kalau hari-1, ke-2 kesan cubitan jadi merah2, hari ke-4, ke-5 baru jadi lebam. Boleh? Haha~

Kene buat panggillan Nur? Adoiiiiii.. hahaha~

11 things we are not bestfriend

#1. We are not bestfriend if you cannot accept the way I am which I have to be myself.


#2. We are not bestfriend if you keep complaining kind of T-shirt i wear. Doesnt matter if it has a strange looking cartoon or weird design on it.


#3. We are not bestfriend if you keep rattling about kind of jeans I wear. Doesnt matter if the jeans has a self-made hole at the knee or it was faded or the jeans are in other color than dark blue.


#4. We are not bestfriend if you annoyed about how hideous my hair style it or how messy it is.


#5. We are not bestfriend if you ignored me, went out with your friends almost everyday until late where its only time you feel enjoyed & happy but when you feel bored of them or you feel alone or be at the end of the day, then you remembered me.


#6. We are not bestfriend if we have a small fight, & we need some space for each other, your friends/supporter/bodyguards investigate me & gave me a look like I'm sorta top criminal that need to be vanguished.


#7. We are not bestfriend if you think that you think logically & relevantly all the time but you are not actually.


#8. We are not bestfriend if you missed someone but you strongly & confidently disagree about what I'm saying but it so OBVIOUS written on your face. Still you denied it.


#9. We are not bestfriend if you still go out with me with a sour face because you missed that person after he left but to my surprise you still denied it. I'm suggesting that we shouldnt go out because you're not that happy compared to when going out with that person or your friends, you're enjoy yourself to the fullest.


#10. We are not bestfriend if you keep comparing me with your popular, manly, stylish, social friends because I'm just being me.


#11. We are not bestfriend if you want your friends being so perfect, you should'nt befriend me. You should know that.

hari pertama full g klaz sebab semalam dah tuang klaz

 

                Tau ape jadik dengan moto aku? Aku punye la takde mood malam tadi. Susah hati sebenarnya, mata takleh tido. Sampai kemas bilik malam2 bute buang sampah ag. Klakar kan? Yela, skuter bukan sepuloh sen due posen. Mahal lerrr... mati la kalo bapak aku tau. Naya je. Pagi tu aku g klaz pon tak semangat, g kol 8.30 pagi tapi tengok jadual rupenye kol 9.30 baru stat. Gi library la melayan perasan. Then, 9.45 baru gerak. Sampai kat kelas je, aku tengok lecturer dah kuar dari kelas. Dah habis kot. Kejap je sebab baru minggu pertama kuliah. Aku missed kelas la tu. 

           Aku pon balik la umah sebab ade 2 jam lagi. Round2 depan kedai tu. Eh, nampak plak skuter aku! Wakaka!! Beta sukeeeeeeeee... aku pon suh la diorg cas bateri moto aku. Die cakap kene lame sket. Ah, tak kisah la. Asalkan starter dapat hidup. Susah la skuter pakai starter kaki. 

               Mood dah ok balik. G klaz, budak2 baru dalam klaz. Aku takde kawan so, aku pun mempasifkan diri. Kelas kimia lecturer suh carik group makmal. Aku pon macam malas nak fikir. Nanti2 la fikir. Sebab takde kawan sangat sebab klaz baru tak kenal sangat budak2 klaz. Aku pon merayau2 kat fakulti melayan perasaan sementara menunggu kelaz fizik. Then, aku dengar ade orang panggil nama aku. Rupenya ade dak mikrobiologi offer aku suh masuk group diorang. Eiii.. baeknye. Tak payah aku carik group. Thanx uolz. Betol. Seyes nie.

            Tapi yang paling hepinye subjek matematik aku dapat pengecualian kredit sebab dah ambik mase diploma. Foundation of applied mathematic. Kire macam add math la. Beta gumbiraaaaaaa... kelas 2 jam ari selasa & rabu aku leh balik awal kol 3. Yayyyyyyy... tu je la nak cakap. Bosan kan. Sape suh bace. Gi jauh2 nu.

skuter aku hilang sebab? Jeng3~

        

             Aku takleh tido malam nie dowh. Kalo aku risau, aku mesti kemas bilik. Buat2 busy. Buang sampah malam2 bute. Ko ade? Takde kan. Risaukan skuter aku macam hilang je. Takde plak kat depan umah aku. Petang tadi aku parking kat depan kedai moto sebab nak kasi cas bateri die. Tapi macam customer maha banyak so, aku biarkan la dulu. Lagipun ade moto blok skuter aku. Then petang pon cine tu ckp esok je cas bateri sebab dah tak sempat. Kedai dah nak tutup



         Then, aku blk umah la. Malam tu aku kuar kjp. Bila blk check skuter dah takde. Kene curik ke or kene alih? Aku dah tawaf pusing keliling takde pon. Kene curik ke? Tapi restoran khalifah 24 jam kat sebelah tu, salu ramai org. Sempat ke nak curik? Ntah. Misteri tol. So camne? Kalo takde rezeki nak wat camner kan. Beli baru ke? OMG! Pakai bas ke pg uitm? Adoi la. Jalan kali? Slim la kaki beta. Kaki je slim. Atas boyot.



          Hari nie ari 1st g fakulti dah kene tegur. Aku pakai baju kemeja, suar slack, jaket. Then mase nek lif, sorg lecturer badan2 besar nie tego aku, where is your tie. You suppose to where your tie on Monday. Kerek je. Aku cakap la, yeah i noe that. I just came & in hurry. Its in my bag actually. Later i'll wear it. Die cakap ape, you shudnt put your tie in your BLOODY bag. Mak ai.. rude nye. Bloody lak. Tau la encek pakai Britain nye English, cakap melayu sudah. Pe lagi die membebel mase kuar dari lif. Huhuhu~



     Dah tu je la. Esok nak tanye kedai moto tu ade tak nampak skuter aku.

perlu ke orang bace blog aku?

      

       Aku dah berazam dengan diri aku sendiri yang aku akan merajinkan diri untuk tulis blog. Walaupon penulisan ntah pape. *sape suh bace* LOL. Tapi takpe la kan. BM saye A2 je. Habis kene marah cekgu BM. Ape lak. A2 pon ok pew. Kendian, aku nak tulis dalam BM je la. Kalo dalam tulis dalam English, nanti orang cakap martabatkan bahasa melayu lak. Baek lah. Hamba penurut perintah. 



      Bukan terer sangat pon English, pandai sikit2 pon sebab kawan2 aku banyak non-muslim. Diorang banyak cakap English, aku dengar la. Kendian, mak aku salu ajar aku English. Ajar grammar camtu mase aku skolah rendah. Aku salu jugak dengar lagu, citer diorg. Tapi cerekarama tetap di hati occay! Aku dan kawan aku salu buat ulasan lepas tengok cerekarama. Lawak kan.



         Mase beli woofer kat Low Yat aritu, ktorg deal la dengan salesman cine nie. Kawan aku tanye nape aku tak cakap English sedangkan English aku power. *power ke? Wekkk* Sebab aku suke dengar bangsa lain cakap melayu. Lagipun cine tu dulu cakap melayu, so nape tak teruskan je kan. Boleh diterima ke alasan tu? Haha.. Cakap English pon bile penting je, macam g interview ke, takpon kalo orang tu tak paham base Melayu. Leh la show off. *pitam*


           Arini kan, Ameer my bestfren datang umah aku. Die antar baju2 aku tertinggal kat umah die sebab aku nak pakai pergi kelas isnin nie. Then ktorg makan la ayam penyet tak jauh dari pusat komersial seksyen 7 shah alam nie. *Amboi.. panjangnye nyee..hahaha*. Mebi pekerja die sikit kot. Macam lambat sikit nak ambik order. Ade orang kat belakang aku, diorg baru datang. Lepas makanan ktorg sampai, borak2 la sambil makan.



          Then, orang belakang aku angkat dari kerusi terus blah camtu. Rupanya Ameer cakap, order diorg lambat sampai. Air je sampai dulu. Aku pon rase da lame diorg tunggu sebab ktorg berloyer buruk lame gak. Heran waiter kat kedai tu. Diorang cakap la same sendiri yg customer dah lari. Lepas tu ade yang pergi jenguk2 mane tau diorg ade lagi. Tapi memang dah takde pon. Jangan haraplah. Ameer cakap memang biase org wat camtu kalo order sangat lambat sampai tapi aku tak sampai hati lak. Kalo aku, aku bayar je minuman tu. Kang haram lak dalam badan kan.



           Kendian, aku pon balik rumah. Member aku pon balik jgk lepas shopping dengan awek die. Malam nie nak wat ape ea? Leh la g jalan2 dengan keta sebab member yang lagi sorang suh aku pegang keta die lepas die suh aku antar die g KTM Padang Jawa. Adakah ke Jusco Bukit Raja malam ini atau sekadar uptown jer?

i'm not proud of myself

WARNING: Don't bother to read this because this is my personal blog & if you feel annoyed, please leave this page. TQ.

If i said i'm not a religous kind of person despite of my islamic name, shud i be proud of person I am? Certainly not. But that doesn't mean that I'm not looking for the right path of my life. Doesn't mean that I show disrespect towards people who practicing it. Doesn't mean that I give them a 'look' when i see them anywhere. I still respect my religious but i need some time to find the right path of my life.



When azan is performed, I'll stop talking & laughing. I even lower the volume of the television. During ceramah agama in television, I still listen & watch the program. I didn't dissed the show. During, my islamic class, i sit in front & listen carefully because only that specific time I can gain my knowledge about Islam. I still greet my friends "Assalamualaikum" & " Waalaikummusalam". I even interested to listen when my friend talk about knowledge of Islam that I seldom heard of.

People cannot blame me for lack of Islamic Knowledge but that doesn't mean I'm not searching for it. You cannot judge me before you know me well.. Look at my background. My parents do not bother forcing me to perform 5 times prayer. My mother & my sister even do not wear tudung. My dad only do Maghrib & Isya' prayer at the mosque just because he is a AJK of the resident's mosque. My parents do not scold my sister & I when we colored our hair or when I wear silver necklace or when I wear earrings. Furthermore, my friends are mostly non-muslim, they respect me & I respect them too. Moreover my friends like to socialize. But that doesn't mean that I'm so proud of doing all of those things. If you think so, you're so wrong.



In life, i always being teased because of this. My friends even said,

" Hey, I didnt know that you can recite kalimah syahadah."

" Hey, i didnt know that you can perform a prayer because i never saw you did one."

" Hey your name didn't match you act & appearance "

My sister give me a smirk when she see me taking wudu' to perform my prayer. She even say," Since when you repent? " Those words lowered my confidence & fire immediately. Some of my friend also make fun of my mistakes in life. Like selling those story to other people so that i'll look bad. I'm not proud of doing that thing, I still fell ashamed when they talked about it. I'm not like the other kid, who think they so modern in these urban world which they have to fit in with all the global culture. I'm not like those spoil rich kid that have all these sport cars, social life, love clubbing, do drugs,drink the devil's drink & do random sex & proud of their social life. I'm not like THAT majority.



Now, I'm searching for the right path of my life. But its a gradually process. I still searching for the right friends who can give me a guidance towards these new life but not the one who take advantage on me. Because I so fragile & vulnerable from the inside. If someone take advantage on me & hold my hand to the darkside, i cannot do anything because i'm lost & clueless. ( I had write about this on previous post aite? Ahax)

if its a cross-finger... its dangerous

ミ●﹏☉ミ

Mood: Tiada perasaan

Nak cakap, sori la kepada kawan2 blogger lame tak update sejak dari raya aritu. Takde idea lagi. Huhuhu... camne ek? Fening kepala haku takde idea neh. Ermmm... kepada blogger yg singgah kat blog nie, yg komen kat chatbox, thanx la ye. Nanti saye follow korang. Don't worry.

Then, kepada blogger2 yg lame haku x komen blog diorg, nanti aku komen la yeee.. then lastly kepada pengomen setia, encek Azli, sori sangat tak reply komen ko & sori tak menyinggah kat blog ko. Sattt naaaa.. nanti haku berkunjung jugak kat blog kawan2 kuuuu... have a nice day!!

ego oh ego... can u step down please?

Speaking of ego, there's a lot of to talk about because recently I'm suffered from this sickness. Not me but from someone else and someone else too. Because of ego, i feel very annoyed. My inner-self told me that ego is not that important at during some part of our life where sometimes we have to lower it down to make a win2 situation. Its not a matter of who-will-asked-who-first, or who-will-talked-to-who-first. I'm saying this because i'm just too tired to go through this environment that full of egoist people.


I put my ego during a certain little preferable time, not like some people that i knew. For example, during a particular scene, i noticed "x" walked pass behind me but he just do nothing. I rather bet a million ringgit if he didnt notice my back & my skuter. No "hi". Because his ego is too high too say "hi" to me. Its a matter of who-say-"hi"-to-who-first. If i'm the one first, his ego will rising up & he will feel noble but if he did first, its likewise.


Also when buzzing people on yahoo mesengger(ym), a person who buzzed-someone-else means that he needed to talk or chat with the person he buzzed. As a result, the person who he buzzing to, will feel proud, more dignity & have a high self-esteem just because of a matter of who-buzzed-who.


Then, a matter of who-texted-who, or who-called-who-first will make the other person who received the text or the call will be so arrogant or boastful after they fight at some particular time. That is ego. When he did not texted back or called back, its just feel enough for him because the other person had just texted him or called him. He might thinks that the person might be do the actions again at some time.



Do you get what I stated above? If you disagree means u egoist. LOL~

things that I don't understand myself

#1. When a friend asked me to lend him some money, I just gave to him without questioning because I knew that he has his own reasons BUT why when I need help, he questioning me & judge me?


#2. When a friend asked me to accompany him to eat something anywhere just because he was hungry at the middle of the night, I just agree & forced myself although I'm kinda sleepy at that time BUT why when I asked him to do the same thing, he has a lot of excuses?


#3. When a friend asked me a questions or talking to me when I have a lot of things to do, I still chatting with him BUT why when I asked him a question or just wanna talk, when he was busy or online-ing, he totally ignored me?


#4. When a friend post something inappropriate about me in Facebook for the whole world to know & put some kind of bad adjectives/titles to me without knowing me more further (judge me!), I'm still okay with that BUT why I cannot post something like that which is i do not have that gut like everybody else?

p/s: Maybe I'm the problem itself.. yikes!

lucu kan?

When i got something in my mind, i have to write it. Seriously. Jom aku gitau bende lucu berlaku baru2 neh. Dua hari lepas aku saje2 je pergi interview jadi waiter kat satu hotel kat Shah Alam neh. Supervisor tu, cakap ok boleh stat esok. Aku pon stat la keje esok arinye. Shif 7 pagi sampai 3 petang. Penat jugak la. Melayan customer, komplen makanan tak sedap la, blaja setting table, camne nak letak fork, spoon & tissue sume. Then, clear table kalo diorg dah habeskan makanan tuh.


Penat owhhh... aku takde duduk. Tapi aku sonok sebab aku jenis yang takleh dok diam. So aku ske la ke hulu-hilir. Ahaha~ Mesti ade jeee benda nak di buat. Tapi yang tak best nye, keje tu satu hari je offf-day. Nanti tyme raya diorang cakap cuti sehari-dua je. Aku neh da la asal Sarawak, mesti la nak balik kan. Cukup ke nak balik Sarawak nanti? Ahaha~


Last2, lepas pikir panjang malam tadi, aku rasa nak berenti je la. Baek aku berenti awal sebelom aku lama ag keje kat situ kan? Ahax! Aku dah bagi mesej kat supervisor kat situ, then aku nak kol die lagi nanti. Takpe kan, baru keje sehari dah berenti? Hahaha... Sebab aku ade offer yang lebih baek lagi. Nanti la gitau. Kesian jugak kat orang kat situ, penat2 je ajar aku semalam tapi takpe la, aku nie fast learner. Diorg tak susah pon. Kan2~

Bow Tie nak kene pulangkan ke? Eheheh~

vavi? ⊙﹏⊙

ask me anything ........... (づ￣ ³￣)づ ❤

Lama gak x hapdate blog... busy sket je.. (atau buat2 busy ke?). Baru2 nie, member aku introduce kat aku satu application nama die, formspring.me. Best gak la. Die macam website ko jawab soklan kat sape2 yang tanye soklan kat profile formspring ko tuh. Hahaha.. layan gak la walaupon ade soklan yang merepek2. Tp xpe, aku jawab x kire bangsa, agama & kenegaraan (bolehhh??).


So, kalo ade sesape nak bertanye tu leh je. Aku pendengar & pemberi nasihat yang baek (ehem2..). Tak kire la soklan duniawi waima soklan hal akhirat, soklan cintan-cintun, soklan bapak2 @ makcik2, soklan budak skolah nak jawab exam atau soklan merepek2 jugak diterima. Sekian terima kasut..(◡‿◡✿)


Contoh2 soklan:

#1. Soklan berbaur kontroversi.. 

Translation: 

Anonymous: Apa hubungan u dengan Siddiq? Macam intim je..jeles i...

Abby: Siddiq adalah persis adik, abang kepada saya. Merangkap kroni jalan2 cari makan, merangkap kroni jalan2 cari pasal dan yang bersekutu dengannya. Boleh? Dan juga merangkap teman berbicara, merepek, mengumpat sejak dari azali, sejak ktorg highschool sehingga sekarang. These words cant even potrays how being close we are to each others. ahahaha... terus cakap London uoollzz...

Soklan dari anonymous yang bertanye kat member aku Abby. BTW Abby! Good answer!!! Yay!

#2. Soklan berbaur kedegilan..hehe..

Translation:

Anonymous: Masih nak bertanye hal Siddiq. Awak memang rapat dengan die kan? Bleh tak tolong kapelkan kami berdua?

Abby: Hmmmm. Nampaknye awak memang betol2 ske kat Siddiq ye? Dari segi menjodohkan BFF dengan sape2, awak kene isi borang dulu uollz. Banyak kriteria diperlukan ye adik kakak sekalian. Eh adik jerr. Saya perlu tau awak sape, sejak bile ske kat Siddiq nie, dok katne, sebelum nie boipren lame camne? Sape? Hensem tak? Stail rambut awak, awak tinggi ke rendah, umur. Haha.. tq.

#3. Soklan berbaur kesihatan..

Translation:

Anonymous: Saye pening sekarang nie. Ade ubat untuk menghilangkan pening tak?

Siddiq: Pening camne tu ehhh? Ade macam2 pening. Kalo pening, silakan menelan panadol, atau pergi karaoke kew... kalo masih jugak, tido je la.... gerenti pening kurang... paling mujarab, bawak sembahyang!

#4. Soklan berbaur fashion/trend..

#5. Soklan berbaur merepek...

Translation:

Anonymous: Diq, saye ade masalah r... gigi anak kucing saye dah nak patah. Perlu ke saye tolong mematahkan gigi tersebut atau biar jer? Boleh tumbuh balik tak gigi tersebut?

Siddiq: Senang jerrr... letak lew gigi palsu kat kucing tuuu... atau tanam gigi baru ala2 aishah & claudia af7..

Malu bertanya sesat jalannnn ye kawan-kawannnn......

10 things to do to be accepted

If you noticed recently, in order for a person to be accepted among... ermmm... shud i say so called 'normal' community especially youth, there are certain things that you have to take note to be accepted. If not you will end up being a freak/nerd/loser.

10 things to do to be accepted.

 
1.  You have to be a social-kind-a-person which blend with all kind of people, no boundaries among boys & girls, partying, clubbing, being mean with other people, so that other people will wowed at you.

2.  You have to be a fake or lie about certain things, if not you will be called a freak.

3.  You have to be not-virgin and had sex, so that you will become 'normal' among the people who proud of their before-marital sex.

4.  You have to talk sex with your friend and make it as a normal chat.

5.  You have to know how to drive a car & ride a moto, if not you will called a loser.

6.  You have to be so fashionable along with the latest fashion, so that you will look cool.

7.  You have to be a smoker so that you will look cool, and girls will fascinated at you.

8.  You have to know about sports and obsessed with them.

9.  You have to go out with opposite gender, if not you will being called gay/lesbians.

10.You have to be a loyal follower of a group with a bossy leader, which obviously will make you look like an idiot but you just happy about it.

You know what.. about the list... i TOTALLY  not a give a damn about it. Hahaha... Who cares about not being accepted? I'm an independent man. I don't need a list  to be accepted.

People who just scared to be 'not normal' are just a bunch of loser/nerd/freak who has no principles to hold on. C'mon la people... is this a 'normal' life you want? Loser! LOL!

stop staring at me!

I'm not cute enough to stare at... period!

The reason of all this emptiness?

Kepada Geh / Segeh/ Jijot / Ziejah/ Zieyzah/ Nurhazijah bt. Morshidi,


Gehhhh, rindu aku dengan kau eh. Camne tok??? Rindu gilak2. Kau la bezfren/kazen aku sepanjang masa aih. Walaupon kita duak sik bertego agik sebab orang lain, aku tetap anggap kau bezfren aku eh. Tedah nangga kitaduak. Mangsa keadaan. Sebab orang lain kelaie lalu kita duak terpaksa ngekot lalu. Lemah ku mikir koh..


Tauk sik, aku rasa lekak family kita sik bertego nak, aku rasa hidup aku nang sepi lah. Kan aku slalu ngagak kau kat umah. Ngegeh2 nulung kat kedey mak ko lekak aku pulang dari kelas. Kau slalu juak ngabas aku. Poret sampe malam2. Hahaha... ayun depan rumah aku ya nang port pake klaka bodo2 la. Aku rasa macam sikda guna jak aku diam kat kuching agik. Sebab ya la aku apply degree jauh kat shah alam sebab aku rasa sikda guna jak diam kat kuching agik.


Tauk sik kau...lamak duak taun kita sik bertego, mala jak aku mimpi bertego dengan kau aih. Aku tego kau. Aku tunggah kau segeh. Nasib kau maok nego balit koh. Aku pikir kau sik mok bertego dengan aku agik tek. Tapi sikpa la. Dalam mimpi pun jadila. Coba la kita jadi macam saril dengan ewan ohhh... cdakduak sik lalek juak mun family2 sidak sik bertego. Sidak bergeng macam besa jak. Last kau mesej aku 2 taun lepas kau madah, kau tauk kakak kau bersalah dalam hal tok tapi macam ne la mok molah. Terpaksa la nyebelahnya..sebab nya kakak kau. Ermmm... tersepit ktduak koh...


Ada sik last kau agak aku lekak kau praktikal dari Sri Aman ya... cdak mak bapak aku dah dingin dah dgn ktkorg. Aku jak sik. Kau berik salam pon, bapak aku sik nyaut. Lekas2 aku ngembak kau dudok kat luar. Klaka kat luar. Aku rasa kau coba untuk sik mok lalek hal ya, sebab ya la kau agak aku tek. Tapi kinek tok dah terok ok. Pintu rumah kita dah tertutup dah. Mak aku cuma kecewa jak masa nya klaie dgn bapak kau ya. Bapak kau sik mok dah ngakuk mak aku adiknya. Ya mak aku kecewa gilak. Mak aku sik suruh bertego dengan kitakorg agik. Aku serba-salah koh. Kedak kau juak, terpaksa nyebelah kakak kau. Camya la aku.


Walaupon dak Dilla, Diana, Nurul, cdak2 orang tua kmkorg cya nang bencik la dengan kau/ktkorg, aku sik ok. Sik pernah aku bencik dengan kau. Dari dolok gik kitakduak ngekek sama2 kat skolah semenggok, lekak ya berjalan raya sama2 pg umah paizol nak scary tepi lereng bukit ya kat batu 11 kpg sri arjuna, beli tali pinggang indie kat satok ya..haha... pergi kedey perumahan sama2, pergi beli relod sambil membeli barang pake mak kau berjual. Nang nisik ada muka orang lain pergi kedey rainbow malam2 buta kol 6.30 lebih kedak ya...nang muka kitaduak ajak. Ingat sik, kitaduak mala jak nunggah sesama dirikmpun segeh?? Geh camya. Bapak aku nanyak pahal nungga GAY?? Ya aku explen madah GEH sebenarnya, segeh. Hahaha.. lucu bapak aku. Lekak ya berloya berjam2 sambil makan sup maggi kat kedey mak kau..ujung2 minggu. Mun sik pergi meli nasi ayam goreng wak sedan. Mun malas mbak balit, makan cya. Nangggg sikda keja lain.


Lelah aku mikir..camne la kita tok nak berbait bah. Macam sikda peluang agik jak. Macam mustahil jak sebab masalah tok nang dah terok. Sik dapat diperbetulkan agik. Dolok nak masa gik berbait, mala jak aku berjalan ngagak kau. Berloya berjam2. Nang mala jak sikda kat rumah. Mak aku mala jak madah aku berat sebelah sebab mala jak ngagak kau, maka cdak kazen nak lain2 ada juak. Adoh...aku nang dah rapat dengan kau dari dolok. Dah la sama taun lahir, sama bulan gik ya. Cuma kau lahir 4hb aku 18hb..huhuhu..


Aku sik rasa boring. Cuma aku rasa kosong jak. Aku dapat eh termenung berjam2. Sik pernah aku macam ya koh. Kali ya maksud kosong kali. Sejak 2 taun sik bertego dengan kau eh, aku rasa mun aku tertemu kau kat pasar mesti aku masih nego kau segeh. Tapi sik tauk la kau camne kinek tok. Ntah2 kau dah bencik juak dengan aku. Tapi sikpa la..Orang lain sik merasa eh. Sebab aku paling rapat dengan kau. Sebab ya la aku paling terasa. Camne tok owhhh... kau masih make nombor tepon nak sama kah??


Aku nak pergi daftar kat uitm Shah Alam eh, 2hb Jan tok. Aku pergi cya 1hb. Lekak tok sikda la kau  bertemu dengan aku agik. Kitaduak pernah juak bah dari jauh bertemu mata tapi sikda juak bertego. Aku takut mun aku nego kau, kau sikmok nyaut. Lekak ya mak aku nganok aku gik. Adohhh... Ne tauk mun 3 taun aku kat Shah Alam dapat membuang masa aku jak. Ne tauk aku sikda gilak mimpi bertego dengan kau. Dapat juak aku melupakan kesedihan aku. Ya jak sebenarnya. Pasal tujuan nak belajar ya, reason no.2. Yang penting aku sik maok diam kat kuching agik.


Ikhlas,
Mubbaraq Al-Siddiq bin Sharkawi/ geh/ segeh/ siddiq/ sedeq

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