penyakit bosan :masalah kendiri (kendiri??? Walllaaa!!!)

To tell you the truth, there are some certain time where i can easily found myself lying in the battlefield of boredom. Seriously. Just like right now, where i wandering around my house ALONE. People here get busy at all times, they hardly talk to anybody. And these emptiness & loneliness is killing me from the inside.


As for example, my roomate, Kay (as what i had mentioned). When he get so excited online-ing, he will ignored when i talked to him. Just because he get super-excited browsing girls, chatting etc. Yes, online is good but all the times?? Are you serious??


I kinda active & noisy guy. I cannot live without talking. I cannot live without any noise.


My other housemate juz got back from work & he seemed tired. No mood to talk or hanging out. Its ok. No worries.His roomate, also student doing a internship at what-so-ever company hardly being seen in the house. He must be pretty confortable at the outside & come back only to sleep. Ok.




My other 2 housemate, always going out & doing their own bussiness. Then Kay, going for his course test at 8.00 pm and just got back at 11.30-something pm. I waited for him to get something to eat, but it was too late when he reached home & i bet he already eaten outside. He seemed did not bother about me still not eating until now.




I think the problem come from myself, i guess. Because its a nature for people keep doing busy which give me these symptoms where i cannot talk, i cannot laugh, i cannot joke & i cannot being happy. Shows how sick & paranoid i am. I'm strictly NOT blaming them, but again maybe these sickness come from myself. Ermmm... maybe i should less doing that so-called habits. Yeah!! I'll try!

I have to find my own happiness.... i guess...

p/s: Chiow...i have no mood to talk right now &  i need to swallow something.. later....