Ever heard? A modern story of 'A Walk to Remember'

It's been ages i didn't updated my blog (i guess). Just because of my daily life is so boring lately. But there's a story i'm going to share. Thus i'm a storyteller when it comes to writing. LOL. It's about a love story of 2 pure-hearted lovebirds that hardly united just because of some sad pathetic reasons. And this is a true story of a friend of mine.


There is a cute, fair skin & long hair women called Jesse. She is a non-muslim from Sarawak who studying in Shah Alam. She's known as a talkative, kindhearted, easygoing, a little tomboyish girl among of her friends. Which is why she have a lot of friends & people feel so comfortable around her. When its comes to a relationship (from her previous one), i trust that she is different from other girls. She's not a fussy one as well do not like to force anybody.


And there is a muslim man named Shah from Kuantan which resembled Mat Rempit, tall, dark skin, messy hair, ignorance, seems cannot be trusted-kind-of-person, always over the border, not appreciate people enough & likes to fool people around & messing with their feeling, rarely say thank you & couldn't care enough for anyone. But still he has good qualities. But when it comes to having a conversation, he always talk nicely. Likes to joke which is why people cannot take him seriously. Still have a nice heart & definitely a family man.


Both of them are my friends.


Why two of them become both?


Basically there were 4 people including Shah in a group plus Jesse. Obviously Jesse likes to help this lazy group of men. Sorry guys. LOL. For a certain reasons, 3 of Shah's friends splited their own way & left Shah with Jesse alone. Because of they always spend times together, some kind of funny feeling between them blossomed.


Shah always needed Jesse to help him for every assignment in his life. From waking him up for class until helping him to finish up his assignments (btw they're in the same course). For the record, although Jesse is so exhausted like hell helping this guy, she still doing so but having a sigh at the same time. Jesse always complaining to me that, Shah always mad at him when she called him to wake him up for class. But, he asked Jesse to do so the night before.


Its that funny enough? :p


Shah always mentioned that he's not looking Jesse as a girl because she always hang out with guys. Sometimes it hurt Jesse so bad but she just keep it to herself. Shah even talked roughly like sometimes rising his voice when Jesse interrupting him. Jesse had told me that she even cried when he did that but not in the present of Shah definitely.


But yes, there are some good qualities of this guy despite of his annoying & childish attitude (according to Jesse). He always accompanied Jesse wherever Jesse go although he has a lot of guy friends. He will contribute his 100% of dedication when doing assignments with Jesse. Both of them will meet up at some place (mostly at KFC) & discussing until late at night. Shah also not hesitated to help Jesse for whatever she requested. He even give Jesse some gift ( 3 kind of gift and one of them a sweater & she refuse it).


Is that a clue of something going on between them? Like a puzzle needed to be completed? Ha!

You have to wait to see what happened between them that will touch your heart.

To be continued... because i'm so damn sleepy right now. Zzzzzz~

i'm not proud of myself

WARNING: Don't bother to read this because this is my personal blog & if you feel annoyed, please leave this page. TQ.

If i said i'm not a religous kind of person despite of my islamic name, shud i be proud of person I am? Certainly not. But that doesn't mean that I'm not looking for the right path of my life. Doesn't mean that I show disrespect towards people who practicing it. Doesn't mean that I give them a 'look' when i see them anywhere. I still respect my religious but i need some time to find the right path of my life.



When azan is performed, I'll stop talking & laughing. I even lower the volume of the television. During ceramah agama in television, I still listen & watch the program. I didn't dissed the show. During, my islamic class, i sit in front & listen carefully because only that specific time I can gain my knowledge about Islam. I still greet my friends "Assalamualaikum" & " Waalaikummusalam". I even interested to listen when my friend talk about knowledge of Islam that I seldom heard of.

People cannot blame me for lack of Islamic Knowledge but that doesn't mean I'm not searching for it. You cannot judge me before you know me well.. Look at my background. My parents do not bother forcing me to perform 5 times prayer. My mother & my sister even do not wear tudung. My dad only do Maghrib & Isya' prayer at the mosque just because he is a AJK of the resident's mosque. My parents do not scold my sister & I when we colored our hair or when I wear silver necklace or when I wear earrings. Furthermore, my friends are mostly non-muslim, they respect me & I respect them too. Moreover my friends like to socialize. But that doesn't mean that I'm so proud of doing all of those things. If you think so, you're so wrong.



In life, i always being teased because of this. My friends even said,

" Hey, I didnt know that you can recite kalimah syahadah."

" Hey, i didnt know that you can perform a prayer because i never saw you did one."

" Hey your name didn't match you act & appearance "

My sister give me a smirk when she see me taking wudu' to perform my prayer. She even say," Since when you repent? " Those words lowered my confidence & fire immediately. Some of my friend also make fun of my mistakes in life. Like selling those story to other people so that i'll look bad. I'm not proud of doing that thing, I still fell ashamed when they talked about it. I'm not like the other kid, who think they so modern in these urban world which they have to fit in with all the global culture. I'm not like those spoil rich kid that have all these sport cars, social life, love clubbing, do drugs,drink the devil's drink & do random sex & proud of their social life. I'm not like THAT majority.



Now, I'm searching for the right path of my life. But its a gradually process. I still searching for the right friends who can give me a guidance towards these new life but not the one who take advantage on me. Because I so fragile & vulnerable from the inside. If someone take advantage on me & hold my hand to the darkside, i cannot do anything because i'm lost & clueless. ( I had write about this on previous post aite? Ahax)

if its a cross-finger... its dangerous

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Mood: Tiada perasaan

Nak cakap, sori la kepada kawan2 blogger lame tak update sejak dari raya aritu. Takde idea lagi. Huhuhu... camne ek? Fening kepala haku takde idea neh. Ermmm... kepada blogger yg singgah kat blog nie, yg komen kat chatbox, thanx la ye. Nanti saye follow korang. Don't worry.

Then, kepada blogger2 yg lame haku x komen blog diorg, nanti aku komen la yeee.. then lastly kepada pengomen setia, encek Azli, sori sangat tak reply komen ko & sori tak menyinggah kat blog ko. Sattt naaaa.. nanti haku berkunjung jugak kat blog kawan2 kuuuu... have a nice day!!

ego oh ego... can u step down please?

Speaking of ego, there's a lot of to talk about because recently I'm suffered from this sickness. Not me but from someone else and someone else too. Because of ego, i feel very annoyed. My inner-self told me that ego is not that important at during some part of our life where sometimes we have to lower it down to make a win2 situation. Its not a matter of who-will-asked-who-first, or who-will-talked-to-who-first. I'm saying this because i'm just too tired to go through this environment that full of egoist people.


I put my ego during a certain little preferable time, not like some people that i knew. For example, during a particular scene, i noticed "x" walked pass behind me but he just do nothing. I rather bet a million ringgit if he didnt notice my back & my skuter. No "hi". Because his ego is too high too say "hi" to me. Its a matter of who-say-"hi"-to-who-first. If i'm the one first, his ego will rising up & he will feel noble but if he did first, its likewise.


Also when buzzing people on yahoo mesengger(ym), a person who buzzed-someone-else means that he needed to talk or chat with the person he buzzed. As a result, the person who he buzzing to, will feel proud, more dignity & have a high self-esteem just because of a matter of who-buzzed-who.


Then, a matter of who-texted-who, or who-called-who-first will make the other person who received the text or the call will be so arrogant or boastful after they fight at some particular time. That is ego. When he did not texted back or called back, its just feel enough for him because the other person had just texted him or called him. He might thinks that the person might be do the actions again at some time.



Do you get what I stated above? If you disagree means u egoist. LOL~

jom! Go genting! (∩_∩)

Sebelum pose tu kan, kakak aku & kak sedara aku datang Key ell cuti2 malaysia. Lagipun diorg nak shopping, so aku n kazen aku yg study kat uitm shah alam tu dtg jgk la jenguk diorg. Saje2 nak mencukupkan korum. Penat wooo.. 3 hari berjalan non-stop, dah la aku tyme tu demam. Tak best jalan kalo demam. Huhuhu.. ktkorg dok kat hotel area jalan tar depan semua house tu. Nak soping g je kat bawah tu. haha...

 saje2... nyemak kat otel diorq.. kih3..

 hasil bersoping sakan

takottttttttttttttt

kazen aku. Study kat mahsa key ell.  wahaha.. tak takot ag dah

London ke?? ahaha~

pose terbaek dari haku *perasan*

adek kazen laki aku kat atas tu.. ktorg sebaya.. jgn pikir plek2 keyh.. haha.. makan laksa penang kat jusco midvalley... sedapppppp ngek!

kak sedare aku with his BF

kakak hakuuu jer...

Tobat tujuh keturunan aku tak nak naek benda nie ag...... waaaaaaaa

p/s: Nanti kite g ramai2 nak? Hehehe.. jom cuti malaysia.. wakaka~

things that I don't understand myself

#1. When a friend asked me to lend him some money, I just gave to him without questioning because I knew that he has his own reasons BUT why when I need help, he questioning me & judge me?


#2. When a friend asked me to accompany him to eat something anywhere just because he was hungry at the middle of the night, I just agree & forced myself although I'm kinda sleepy at that time BUT why when I asked him to do the same thing, he has a lot of excuses?


#3. When a friend asked me a questions or talking to me when I have a lot of things to do, I still chatting with him BUT why when I asked him a question or just wanna talk, when he was busy or online-ing, he totally ignored me?


#4. When a friend post something inappropriate about me in Facebook for the whole world to know & put some kind of bad adjectives/titles to me without knowing me more further (judge me!), I'm still okay with that BUT why I cannot post something like that which is i do not have that gut like everybody else?

p/s: Maybe I'm the problem itself.. yikes!

salam ramadhan kali ke-3 sebagai blogger

Tak sangke ye neh dah kali ke-3 aku wat post pasal ramadhan sebagai seorang blogger. Pada 1hb 9 2008 aku wat post niat2 pose & aku still pakai post yg sama utk next ramadhan 2009. Dan taun neh aku pakai balik la.. copy & paste je..

sempena bulan ramadhan neh aku nak mengucapkan salam ramadhan kat sume blogger as well as family & friends. Kali neh berbeza sebab aku berpuasa di perantauan. Pasti berbeza & i miss home.

Okeh.. ape2 pon jgn lupa baca niat pose ekk.. haaaa.. oso jgn lupa pg tarawikh...

copy and paste je LOL......

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I'm so grateful becos of ramadhan has come again.... my heart feel very warm although my problems dat i have never being away..anyway...this is my gift to you...

Lafaz Niat Berbuka Puasa

" Yang bermaksud, Ya Allah keranaMu aku berpuasa, dengan Mu aku beriman, kepadaMu aku berserah dan dengan rezekiMu aku berbuka (puasa), dengan rahmat MU, Ya Allah Tuhan Maha Pengasih "

Lafaz Niat Puasa Sebulan" Yang bermaksud, Sahaja aku berpuasa sebulan pada bulan Ramadan bagi tahun ini kerana Allah Taala "

Lafaz Niat Puasa Harian" Yang bermaksud, Sahaja aku berpuasa esok hari untuk menunaikan fardhu puasa pada bulan Ramadan bagi tahun ini kerana Allah Taala



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Tu jeee... selamat berpuasa!!!

Makceh beri award.. len kali beri la agi keyh~

Yayyyy... pes tyme dapat award camneh.. betol wa tak tipu lu. Makceh ye kat Miss Diva neh. Secara official nya, Miss Diva la pemberi award yg pertama kepada aku. Sakai wooooooo.. LOL. Makceh jugak kepada sape2 yg ske membaca blog aku yang remeh-temeh nie. Aku cuba menvariasinya lagi keyh. Okeyh3!!




p/s: Nak tanye.. sape yg buat award neh? Bleh ke bagi sekati2 kt org ea? Kalo buat sendiri design die leh tak? Ahaha~

Makcehhhh~ Muaaacccxxxxxxxx~

my ideal boyfriend

Girls today are very demand$ when it comes to "a perfect boyfriend". They have expectations & specifications & requirements. But they themselves are not perfect either. Term like " an ideal boyfriend" is not exist in a real world. Be realistic girls!


They expect higher on man, because they want to be cool & want to be equal to their surroundings. They adore man with sportsman's resume, they crazy about taller & skinny one, they want a stylish man & bad boy type, they want the hunky & manly face, dark skin & a lot of money in their BF's pocket.


FYI, that type of man NEVER exist. Each one of man have a weakness once you knew them. They might look perfect but i doubt that they really that perfect. For example, I'm kinda well-mannered person. People thinks that sissy or whatsoever. But why i feeling so digusting when i saw a man carrying his GF's handbag on his shoulders like he owns it? Just because he has so-called an "ideal physical" so he get a free pass? I bet if i'm doing that people will thinks i'm sissy.


Its because im not kinda a romantic guy although im a well-mannered person aka good boy. Girls should adore me for that because not-romantic attitude will shows that I'm a cool person but thats stereotype & i hate it.


The 2nd situation, where i was washing my hand after lunch at a food stall & there was a guy washing hands beside me that look really fierce.


He has a straight face, fierce one, skinny abdomen, tall & typical guy today. But to my suprise, his ringtone was "Rah-Rah-Ah-Ah-Ah. Roma-Roma-Ma. Gaga-Oh-Lala. Want your bad Romance~". What the hell is that?? LOL! That sounds GAY! Im not even put any Lady Gaga's song as my ringtone. Hah! Thats what you called an ideal one? Bitch! Move on Byotch! LOL!~